This not being able to focus stuff is just really getting on my nerves. Couple that with not getting a full night’s sleep and you have a recipe for failure. But, somehow, I am making it through.<\/p>\n
I’m to the point where I’m amazed when I’m actually able to accomplish something. I feel like warning everyone that I’m absolutely useless today, but it’s not totally true. I may feel useless, but I’m pushing myself really hard to get things done, in spite of everything.<\/p>\n
I see the psychiatrist this evening, but I’m not sure that it even matters, as I just received a letter that he is moving to another part of the country. I’m thinking that this could be a good thing. I wouldn’t mind starting from scratch with another doctor. I really don’t want to take any meds for the bipolar right now. I want to wean off of what I’m on, see if I can get my concentration, vision, weight and libido (sorry if that was TMI) back to normal and then maybe, MAYBE we can discuss trying me on a different medication.<\/p>\n
We’ll see what the current doc says to that proposal. If he’s not amenable to my suggestion, then maybe the next one will be. It’s a good thing that I see Dr. Steve on Halloween because now I need a recommendation for a new doctor! Part of me is unhappy to have to start again, but part of me feels like I didn’t have the kind of rapport with this psychiatrist that I would have liked to have and is looking forward to trying again with someone else. Maybe I’ll find one who doesn’t feel like I have to be on meds for the bipolar, but will be willing to treat just the depression for now.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
This not being able to focus stuff is just really getting on my nerves. Couple that with not getting a full night’s sleep and you have a recipe for failure. But, somehow, I am making it through. I’m to the … Continue reading